I had decided I would visit Mom yesterday, April 7, 2009, and that I would get there in enough time to take her for a manicure, they do manicures each Tuesday Morning. I almost made it in time, but alas driving alone on the new Legacy Highway for only the second time by myself I took the wrong exit. I took the North Ogden exit instead of the South Ogden exit, and sadly spent the next 30 minutes trying to find my way to Manor Care,
where Mom is a patient, needless to say we missed the manicure time.
Mom was laying down when I got there and lately that is where I find her, no matter what time I try to visit, she is laying on her bed. I know she has been up and dressed for the day, I know that she has had her breakfast
but is now back on her bed, I'm pretty sure it is by her own request that she is there. I know Mom is very frustrated and depressed, on top of that, she isn't able to communicate with us even though she tries, much of what she says doesn't make a lot of sense to me. Occasionally I can get a drift of what she is trying to talk about, but on this particular visit I had no clue.
Dementia and Alzheimers are very cruel diseases, they rob you of your loved one before death, so when they do pass on, you have actually lost them twice. To add insult to injury It also robs the person carrying the disease of their memories so it's like a double whammy and a sad situation no matter how you look at it.
I'm not sure my Mom knows that I am one of her daughters, and for the very first time as I visited her yesterday, As I was leaving, when I hugged her and told her I loved her, she didn't reply that she loved me too.
When I returned home I realized that I had missed a play that my grandaughter
Ashley Bushman was doing at her school, all in all it wasn't a very good day.
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Hey Mom! Who knew you had a blog? And more importantly, who knew you had THREE blogs! Not me!
That was sad to hear about Grandma. It was hard for me to visit her just that one time when we were in Utah. I can't imagine how hard it must be to see her like that all of the time.
Have you ever watched the movie "The Notebook?" It's a sweet movie about dementia. I think you would like it. But it would make you cry. A lot.
I can't imagine how hard it must be to watch your mom slip away like that. I hope you keep that in mind for me, I don't want to have to go through what you are going through in a couple years : ) I don't think I am as strong as you are! I wouldn't be able to handle it.
We are sure excited to see you in a couple days!
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